A year ago today

A year ago today, my whole life changed. 

A year ago today, I heard the voice of the woman who gave birth to me… for the first time since she gave me away.

A year ago today, I picked up the phone, knowing that life would never be the same. 

A year ago yesterday, I got the email that changed my world… The email that gave me my roots, my place, my fit.

A year ago today, I made the phone call, sitting in a room full of sleeping children, and wondering just how much everything was going to change. 

Scared, nervous, exited, happy, sad… all in one moment.  Shaking, wondering, questioning, everything that I was, and everything that was to come.  Not knowing the outcome, not having a clue how the rest of it could possibly go.  I picked up the phone and dialed. 

Wondered if she would answer the phone, and she did. 

A year ago today, I found the woman who made me me.  The one who gave me my freckles, and my eyes and my smile.  The one who shared her genetics for short legs… her dislike of tomatoes, and that freakish way of eating chicken dipped in mayonnaise.  Who made me laugh, and cry, and question everything and every bit of who and what I am. 

The woman who made me me, who gave me my life, and gave me a chance. 

The reason that I am alive on this earth today. 

A year ago today…

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5 Comments

  1. issycat said,

    September 12, 2007 at 11:47 pm

    ((((Jessie))))

    You should send this to her.

  2. angel said,

    September 13, 2007 at 9:04 am

    Sending lots of hugs sweetie xx

    I agree, she would love to hear that.

  3. najah said,

    September 14, 2007 at 9:56 am

    I’ve read this post over and over. I agree you should send it to her, it’s something I would love to hear from my own daughter. I think of you and your mom often and wish for resolution. Your journey mirrors my own in many ways.

  4. Lillie said,

    September 17, 2007 at 1:11 pm

    *Sigh*

    I miss you Jessie.

  5. mayzie said,

    September 27, 2007 at 6:52 pm

    I don’t know that I would say you should send this to her, maybe that’s just me being me. But, have you had any contact with her lately?


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